Thursday, July 28, 2011


went to a doctor for a certain issue. she seen a lump in my throat
and told me that might be the cause of whats going on with me and that they need to draw fluid
and shes going to refer me to a some ,but for right now shes going to examine me and give me medicine.
she leaves the room comes back so she can examine me but gets mad and walks out saying that was a waste and i didn't know if she was coming back because she didn't finish the exam. i didn't know if i should wait on her then i hear her telling the nurse "tell her she can leave now

' as I'm leaving she tells me i need to draw blood but doesn't want to see me when i draw the blood so i need to be there before she comes in .
was so concerned about my health i didn't care how mean she was to me i just wanted help. I went back the next day to get blood work but it seem like the people working there didn't want to help.i ask the nurse if the person who does blood work in and being told no I waited I think an hour ask her again she tells me if she came in she would have know . waiting 3 hours and finding out she was there all that time and i had to go back there my self and look for the lady who does blood work and ask her to draw blood with no help from the nurses who were in their own world .
they didn't even call me with my test results i had to call them and found out the samples they took they end up throwing away (the nurse told me this ) and didn't check for anything but i paid for this and she charged me for me for things she didn't even do how could she. she walked out. her nurse called me a few days after that saying the doctor told her to call me and ask how am i responding to the medication the doctor gave me. i told her what medicine ?? she gave me nothing. the nurse says she'll call back but never did.

so stressed by this and didn't understand why this was going on with me or why they wouldn't help me
.still wanting help .the referred doctor's nurse calls me to confirm my appointment and tell me that there going to do x-rays and a ultra sound on my throat. so my mother and me go to the doctor i was referred to about the lump in my throat they were supposed to take x-rays etc.i had a nice nurse ask me questions and my mother told her what horrible things the other doctor did to me (which you shouldn't do , never talk bad about a doctor to another that has referred you chances are they know each other and will take their side ).The nurse was in shocked by all this and said shes going to let the doctor know and the doctor should be in a few and we waited .
when the doctor finally does come in shes mad slams the door and says WHOA!!! I CAN SEE THAT THING IN YOUR THROAT ALL THE WAY FROM HERE YOU HAVE CANCER !!. i was in shocked i didn't know what to say i couldn't even think right .all i was thinking why me god please help me she's telling my mother she wants to do a biopsy and remove it asap shes sure that's what it is she wants to do it next day,my mother tells her your scaring her cause as soon as you walk through the door your telling her she has cancer her voice gets louder and she yells YOUR SCARED !!! WHY ARE YOU SCARED ,SCARED OF WHAT! and gives me a disgusted look and turns to my mother and tells her when they should schedule the biopsy
i cut in and say what about x-rays and the ultra sound cause that's why i came here she rolled her eyes at me and says of course i have to do that before biopsy but I'm not doing that today cause she didn't feel like it and shakes my hand and leaves ,but that's the whole reason why i went there for x-rays and ultra sound.she made me pay for a visit t to tell me the next day well do x-rays cause she doesn't want to ,didn't examine me at all. the whole reason of going was for x ray and ultra sound .so i went home i was so stressed out about this and scared i had that sick feeling in my stomach you get when your nervous that wouldn't go away i was so scared i couldn't even sleep.

i went in a christian chat room that i go in for prayer they had a christian show on .feel asleep stressed n worried got up with that same feeling thinking maybe i should go back to this doctor and even if she is mean .who cares as long as she helps me. i herd gods voice telling me why would you go back to her knowing she didn't do the right things (she should of never try diagnose me without testing first). she had no proof .i kept praying knowing in faith he would help me and i kept praying that the lump would just go away on its own no biopsy no surgery no chemotherapy no radiation.

i kept praying in faith i kept thanking him in advance. i quoted scriptures .i was in the christian room even night and at the same time i was hurt by what the doctors did ,and why they didn't want to help me and i didn't understand why they were doing this to me . I told God this and gave it to him i didn't understand what was going on but i put my trust in him and I didn't want to go back to the doctors. my sisters kept calling my mother and me saying i need to go to the doctor for my throat but i didn't want to go. couldn't see my self going back to doctors i didn't trust them ,and i didn't want a biopsy it looked so pain full and part of me was still scared.

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